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Welcome to Reflective Hour with Tammy Toney-

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Butler.

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I'm your host and evangelist,

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but we all know who the host of

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this show is and everything that we do,

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and that's Christ by way of the Holy

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Spirit.

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Holy Spirit,

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come have your way in this time that

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we have together.

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May they hear you and not me,

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see you and not me.

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May they be comforted by you.

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May they be strengthened by you.

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May they be forever changed as they glean

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the truth

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through the word of truth and they be

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empowered, emboldened, equipped, set free.

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And he who the son sets free is

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free indeed.

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Thank you, Jesus.

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Thank you, Holy Spirit.

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Oh, Abba Father, thank you.

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Thank you for your peaceful presence that

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just is enveloping us now.

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And today's episode is about freedom.

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It's called free breaking the chains of

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addiction.

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I see that image and I see a

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man tormented.

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I see a man tormented in his mind,

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trying to escape the thoughts that never

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seem to stop.

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that never seem to go away.

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Thoughts of being worthless.

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I'll never measure up.

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I don't matter to anybody.

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I've hurt people through my addiction,

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but it's all I've known.

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How do I break free of it?

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How do I let go and let God

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How do I truly embrace healing?

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And a quiet mind.

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Do I dare believe I, a sinner,

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could truly be set free by God?

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Wow.

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Let that sink in.

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I'm here to tell you,

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if he set me free,

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with all the junk in my trunk,

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the people I've hurt with words, actions,

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the choices I made because of my childhood

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trauma that I never dealt with.

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Being a survivor of child sex trafficking,

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my mom would have been considered to be

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my trafficker.

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Losing my father to suicide and us burying

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him on Father's Day when I was fifteen.

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but losing him to Vietnam before that and

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then coming home and there was a parental

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divorce and he was a pretty much absent

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dad for me.

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Turned to alcoholism to cope and he lost

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his battle with complex trauma and coping

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through alcohol and died by suicide.

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I never knew,

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I will never know why he did what

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he did,

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but I can tell you

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I would see it in his face,

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like this image, the torment,

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the hell that he was enduring.

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A silent war going on a battlefield of

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the mind.

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A stronghold that many of you are

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struggling to break free from.

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Well,

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I'm here to tell you that you can

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do it because I did.

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But I only did it through the Lord

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Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit.

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And the Holy Spirit helped me shed my

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food addiction.

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I didn't need Ambien to get to sleep.

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I didn't need wine to cope.

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The Holy Spirit set me free.

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The blood of Jesus covered everything.

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those raw aching wounds.

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Remember,

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he's the great physician and the Holy

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Spirit's our comforter.

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And I had been saved,

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but I had never let go and surrendered

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to being controlled by God.

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And I had let others control me as

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a child because I had no control.

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And that didn't turn out too well.

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And I said, well, I'm never going to.

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do that again.

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I'm going to be my own person.

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I'm going to be in control.

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I'm going to shape my outcome.

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I'm going to make my own money.

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I'm going to do everything.

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Me, me, me.

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But when I became a Christ follower,

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and the Holy Spirit came inside of me,

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it was through my surrender,

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realizing that me putting myself as a God

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in my life,

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putting myself on the throne of my life,

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it wasn't doing well.

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I wasn't doing well.

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I was having panic attacks,

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anxiety attacks.

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I was having all this fear.

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I was a mess.

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I wasn't sleeping.

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And even though I was making a lot

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of money,

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I was a very successful professional.

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as a professional nurse,

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thinking that if I healed everybody else,

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I'd heal myself,

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or if I lost myself in the service

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of others and saving others,

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we could lose ourselves in a savior

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complex and have a savior complex.

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When I let go of that and realized

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that nothing was working,

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and I truly made a choice to embrace

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the work done on the cross by Jesus,

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And the fact that he was victimized,

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spit on, beaten, bruised.

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He bled out.

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You know, he had thirty nine stripes.

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His back was ripped open.

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He was disfigured.

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He was stripped naked.

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He knew shame.

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He knew what I had endured.

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He went through hell on the cross.

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And I knew that he did that for

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me.

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And I need to honor his death.

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And I need to honor that work he

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did.

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And I need to honor God, the father,

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that sin has only begotten son,

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that whosoever believeth on him shall not

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perish, but have everlasting life.

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I need to embrace that truth.

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I need to walk in that truth.

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And I need to realize Jesus conquered

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death.

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Jesus didn't stay a victim.

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Jesus was victorious.

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And through his victory,

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I have victory because his spirit is in

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me.

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His victorious spirit is in me.

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And if God be in me and God

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be for me,

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then who can be against me?

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And it was in that moment that I

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was able to truly surrender and truly let

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go and realize that I had no control.

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That control was a farce.

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And I would rather put my trust and

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surrender and come under the Lordship of

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Lord Jesus Christ and be led by his

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spirit and let his spirit change me inside

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out and change my heart and change my

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mind and quiet my mind to have the

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mind of Christ and get rid of stinking

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thinking and thwarting

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tormenting thoughts.

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And it was only through me calling out

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to Jesus and saying,

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I can't do it anymore.

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I give it to you, God.

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I surrender it to you, God.

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I want your Holy Spirit to live inside

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of me and make me fresh and new

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and take that addiction.

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Take it from me, Holy Spirit.

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Get it out of me.

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Get it out of me and give me

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the strength to

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live a victorious life,

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to move from victimhood to victory,

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to even know how to do that,

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to live as a restored human being instead

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of in the residue in the ashes of

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the past.

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Help me to step truly into beauty instead

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of ashes.

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victory instead of defeat.

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I don't know how to do it because

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all I've ever known was victimhood.

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From the moment I was a little girl

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and I was victimized and that heavy cloak

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of trauma was put on me,

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that garment of heaviness was put on me

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at no fault of my own.

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I don't know what to do.

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I don't know how to get rid of

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it.

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But that's where Jesus comes in.

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He did the work.

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And the moment you believe it and receive

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him as your Lord and Savior and say,

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come live inside of me,

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make me fresh and new.

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I trust you.

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I give, I trust you.

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I trust in you.

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And I'm going to come under your Lordship.

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And I want you,

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I want you to come into my heart.

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truly save me,

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to truly help me to repent and change

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and turn towards you and that lifestyle of

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holiness and that lifestyle of

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righteousness,

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embracing you and all that you have,

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embracing the more and believing it and

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receiving it, becoming it.

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Help me, Holy Spirit.

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I finally surrender it.

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My will for yours.

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I want to walk in obedience.

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I want to embrace the call on my

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life.

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I believe for the more.

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And I know with this prayer and with

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this

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petition and with this surrender,

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this heart posture of surrender,

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then I've been set free, free, free.

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I'm now free.

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I'm not bound by addiction.

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I'm not bound by tormenting thoughts.

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The blood of Jesus has covered them.

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It has exposed the root.

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It has covered the root.

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I am healed.

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I am restored and I'm redeemed.

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It is finished.

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And that is what Jesus did.

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I am not under the condemnation of the

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law.

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I am not under the condemnation of the

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law.

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I've repented.

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I've asked you to forgive me.

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And I believe that you have.

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And you're helping me to walk on that

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straight and narrow path.

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And I believe in you and I surrender

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and grow me and help me and strengthen

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me, oh Holy Spirit.

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Guide me to all truth.

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Get me away from the stinking thinking of

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the past.

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Break off the demonic strongholds of my

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mind.

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I am not under the accuser of the

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brethren.

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I am not in the grip of Satan

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anymore.

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I have broken free.

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I've been let go.

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I've been set free.

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I have been pardoned.

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I've been pardoned by the blood of Jesus.

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It speaks on my behalf.

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It was my testimony.

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It is my testimony.

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And I,

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it is the final say in the courtroom.

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Case dismissed.

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The blood of Jesus had the final say.

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It was the evidence that was brought in.

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It was the ultimate witness statement.

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And I have been set free.

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I have been redeemed by the blood of

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Jesus.

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And he who the son sets free is

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free indeed.

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And that's what I want you to see.

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And I want you to walk away free,

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away from the torment.

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I want you to believe for more.

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I want you to let the Holy Spirit

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guide you, strengthen you,

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get among fellow believers who've been set

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free by Jesus,

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where the power of God is moving through

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their ministries.

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You know, seek out a meeting,

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go to the, get filled up.

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you know, with, with the word of God,

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go back and listen to our, uh, podcasts,

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uh,

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this one in the reflective hour and the

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reflective spaces ministry podcast.

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Um, start with my, my testimony, uh,

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season one,

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episode one of a reflective hour and just

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binge off of those and see how the

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Lord has restored me and, and,

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and set me ablaze for him and strengthen

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me and shed layer of upon layer upon

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layer and,

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and help me to finally have a quiet

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mind,

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believe for the more and become the more.

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And I prophesy to you today that you

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will become the more.

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You are a generational curse breaker.

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You aren't under a curse.

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Cursed was anyone that hung on a tree

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and Jesus hung on the tree.

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He did all the work at Calvary.

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So you believe that you've overcome and I

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speak life over you.

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I speak freedom and I come into agreement

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with the fact that you've been set free.

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Now believe it,

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receive it and walk in it.

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I'm Tammy Toney-Butler,

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Healing Evangelist and your host.

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God bless you.

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God keep you.

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May his light shine upon you.

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Glory be to Jesus.

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Glory be to Jesus.

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Glory be to Jesus.